Diet Talk

Lunch of Champions

Neglected the blog I have only just started, so I am going to write just for me, so I have somewhere to ramble! 

So I'm on a diet (who isn't)! I have been trying to lose weight for years and years and I'm only 30 something so that's a long time I have wasted feeling fat and sorry for myself. 

In 2007 I embarked on the Cambridge diet I started at 16 stone, this seemed to me the only diet that had every worked for me. It's not for everyone I know, but for me it was the only thing that worked. Nothing was going to stop me. I took the slow scenic road with it and it took me until 2009 to get to my goal of 12 stone. A healthy weight for my 5'9 frame. A long time to lose 4 stone I know but I was on and off, on and off, on and you get the picture! 

In May 2010 I became pregnant with our daughter. Yes I can eat everything in sight I thought! Being pregnant is the only time no one can judge anything you eat! I've lost weight so once I've had the baby I can do it again. Yeah right! What a mistake to make! Since Charlotte was 5 months old I have been trying with Cambridge again and lately Slim and Save, an online much cheaper version of Cambridge which actually have much nicer products. 

At some point in 2013 I weighed in Heavy! Really Heavy! One day I'll put the numbers but at the moment I don't want people who know me to see. I had no idea I weighed that much! I had never looked at the scales with the Cambridge lady I was too scared. That weight was a huge shock. I was so ashamed of myself and still am, I have never told anyone my starting weight. 

After some pretty nasty situations at work (a whole other story but still weight related) I finally stuck to slim and save between October and Christmas and over the whole of 2013 I managed to lose 4stone 7lbs. Still a way to target but I was feeling much better and happy to be able to wear nicer clothes and make an effort. 

Since Christmas it's been a bit of a non starter, I've been on and off it again! I weighed a couple of weeks ago and had stayed the same. Although I was annoyed I had wasted time I was pleased I hadn't put any on!

A couple of weeks ago I fell off the wagon again. Charlotte turned 3 and apparently I had to celebrate. For 2 weeks!!!

I weighed myself this morning and am extremely shocked to have gained a stone!! A stone! A whole 14 pounds! How the hell did that happen! I am so annoyed with myself and am hoping most of it is water retention, (yeah right). The scales might be wrong? Charlotte was brushing her teeth when I weighed so I had to put them in a different place. Oh damn it I just need to accept the 14 pounds! 

So shame has put me back on the wagon, today is a new day. I am reading the Beck Diet Solution in the hope I can train my binge eating brain. And so I will blog about it. Every single boring thought about me and my fat!